AFTER PAINTING FIRE
July 26, 2001
This INTENSITY inside me
WANTS, WANTS, WANTS
MORE,
wants what’s DEEP
what’s REAL
Wants sharpness,
wants BRIGHTNESS that hurts
Wants pain, wants ecstasy
wants what wakes, what cleaves
open
Wants Shiva tearing out
resistance by the roots
and throwing it on the dung heap
Wants Kali ripping with
bloody teeth
Wants war, rape, murder
Wants PASSION
Wants ENLIGHTENMENT
WANTS IT ALL:
Wants LOVE that BLAZES,
BURNS CLEAR THROUGH TO
ENDLESS LIGHT
Wants MUSIC to vibrate the BONES
Wants FOOD that EXPLODES
IN THE MOUTH
WANTS OUT OUT OUT
Wants BEAUTY that SCORCHES THE NERVES
Wants TRUTH that DEVASTATES THE SOUL
Wants a GOD OF THUNDER and BRILLIANCE
Wants ARMAGEDDON
Wants the WORLD TUMBLED
FROM ITS ORBIT
FALLING,
FALLING
FALLING
INTO THE ARMS OF
A SUN GOD
OF BURNING SOUND
Wants DANCING WHIRLING SINGING
BEYOND
BEYOND
BEYOND
WANT NO LIMITS
OPEN OPEN OPEN
FUCKED BY GOD WIDE OPEN
TO BLISS
TO DISSOLUTION
TO SURRENDER
TO UTTER DEVOTION
NO SELF ANYWHERE
NO, it says. NO.
NO to limits
NO to CARING & BEING CAREFUL
NO to KINDNESS & SELF-PROTECTION
NO to COMPROMISES with ‘reality’
NO.
ONLY GOD
ONLY GOD
ONLY GOD
Suggested Contemplations
- Have you experienced this wild intensity of the soul?
- How did it affect you? Did it scare you or enliven you or…?
Continue to Facing the Shadow
I just love this piece. Whenever I am feeling a bit on the low energy side, reading this or hearing it spoken blows the cobwebs right out of my head , wakes me up and makes me feel like striding confidently into whatever unknown future might await me. It is a brisk, bracing energy tonic for my soul!